So sorry it's been so long. I seem to run out of time during the day...
Tomorrow is homecoming, not so sure I'm as excited as I was. I was going with someone but now I'm not. I'm not upset that I'm not going with him bc it was more of a favor, but the fact that I'm not going with anyone is what makes me sad. I wanted to go with "H" but well what an yu do? Oh well let's just hope tomorrow is good:)

Longg time, no entries

Soo I have 30 days left until homecoming! H's friend asked me. I really wanted to go with H but well I'm just the best friend so what can ya do? But H has decided to go with his ex girlfriend who I do not care for at all. I'm really trying to be nice thou. Oh and the guy I'm going with doesnt really knee what to do. Like I think I'm his first date. So we shall see how this works out. I'm also a grade ahead of him so I think I intimidate him for some reason. School is school. Nothing exciting really. The weeks seem to be dragging by and that's no funn! Well off to finish homework and then sleep!
Love always,
Southern Belle!

Sick of crying
Tired of trying
Yeah I'm smiling
But inside
I'm dying!

That would be the story of my life I guess. I honestly don't know why I try so hard. No matter what I do it doesn't work so why try? Then I'm emotional so I cry which doesn't help. Stupid people make me so angry. Yeah maybe I shouldn't let it get to me but I can't help it. Why do I keep trying? I'm tired of kissing butt (not the word I wanted to use)! God! People these days.
Well I got asked to homecoming today. Not who I wanted to go with but I'm trying to be nice. Hope it doesn't turn out bad. Ughh! They lied when they said yur teenage years and high school were the best.
Yours truly,
Southern belle

Soo am I the only one that feels like I can't do anything right for anyone?? I mean seriously! Nothing is ever good enough for my mom. She always finds something to say. I can't even hang out with H who lives right by me with her going off about something. I just want things normal again. I want my step dad home again. I want to be able to be a teenager and hang out and not worry about everything! Tell me I'm not the only one?? And to top it off I have less than 40 days until homecoming! Ehh I don't know if I'm going to go. I want to but I have no one to go with. I would like to go with H but I think he's asking his ex girlfriend which is STUPID!! anyways whatever. Well it's late and I'm tired. I shall wrote soon. I hope things start gerund better around here!
Love always
Southern Belle

Day #1... first entry

12 September 2011
So, this is my first time to ever blog. I wanted to write one more for me then anything else. Its a way to get how I feel out. Even if no one reads it I know that I at least got how I felt out there. My whole life I have kept everything bottled up. I never tell anyone how i truly feel I just keep it inside. There is only one person who i trust with everything. He is my best friend! I dont want to use names so we will call him H. H and i are the best of friends and i wouldnt change a thing about that. well maybe if it meant we became more then friends but I'll save that for a later entry. He means the world to me and i would do anything for him as he would do the same for me. Some people may wonder why i have a lot of guy friends and not that many close friends that are girls and the answer to that is that girls are just catty!! I hate drama and dont like to get into it which is why i tend to distance myself from people who like drama and always want to be in it! its unnecessary and stupid! God high school is hard enough! Speaking of high school i gotta go there tomorrow:/ well maybe someone will read this? this entry was kinda lame and boring lol. they will get better. just gotta get used to it:) well goodnight all.
Yours truely,
Southern Belle